which joy?
- the presence feels about to come and I cannot calm myself
- I feel a real breakthrough in my faith is right at the edge
- I feel I'm about to be convinced of something I've long resisted
- I feel something in me is about to unclench that has been clenched my whole life
- I feel I'm about to come out from under the voice that was never mine to begin with
- I feel a softer version of myself is about to be allowed back
- I feel us finding each other again in a way I haven't felt in years
- I feel a real opening between us is right at the edge
- I feel the marriage we both wanted is about to be the one we have
- I feel my kid is about to come back to me in a way they haven't in years
- I feel I'm about to see my child become who they're meant to be
- I feel something is healing between me and my child
- I'm certain this faith will hold for the rest of my life
- I'm certain that this time my practice will stick
- I'm certain the door to God I just opened will not close on me
- I'm certain the man I'm becoming is the one I'm staying
- I'm certain I won't go back to the hardness I used to live in
- I'm certain this time the inner work is going to hold
- I'm certain we're past the worst and the rest of the years are going to be better
- I'm certain I won't go back to being the husband she had to put up with
- I'm certain we'll stay married through whatever comes next
- I'm certain I'll be the father to my kids that my father couldn't be to me
- I'm certain the bond I have with my child will hold no matter what comes
- I'm certain I'll keep showing up for them even when they don't want me to
- I felt the presence for the first time and I do not want to lose it
- I am still glowing from the first prayer that felt heard
- I am savoring how true the moment of turning felt
- I am still glowing from the first time I responded to a stranger's question without bracing
- I felt my body unclench for an entire afternoon and I do not want to lose that ease
- I am savoring the fact that I let myself cry last week without judging it
- I am still glowing from the conversation we had last week that finally went somewhere
- I felt her see me the other night and I do not want to lose that feeling
- I am savoring how easy it was to laugh with her on Sunday
- I am still glowing from the way my child looked at me on Saturday
- I felt my son thank me for something I didn't know he had noticed
- I am savoring how my daughter handled herself in a moment I thought she'd fail
- I have felt the presence steadily for years and I do not take it for granted
- I'm grateful that my daily practice has held all these years
- I'm grateful the grip on outcomes loosened long ago and stayed loose
- I have known the gentle one in me steadily for years and I do not take that recovery for granted
- I'm grateful that the discipline of meeting myself daily has held all these years
- I'm grateful the inner voice that used to call me names has been gone a long time
- I have known her steadily for years and I do not take her presence for granted
- I'm grateful we made it through the years that almost broke us
- I'm grateful the friendship underneath the marriage has held all this time
- I have known my children steadily for years and I do not take their being here for granted
- I'm grateful I became the father they got instead of the one I grew up with
- I'm grateful the friendship I built with my grown kids has held all these years